It's all happy - inside and out.
Dr. No Bedside Manner had a good scrape around my insides this morning and pronounced: All Clear. Come back later this year. Or next year.
I think he may have said something about sending a sample for lab tests, but all looking good.
I came back out into the public part of the hospital and got all weepy with relief.
Then got spotted by one of the women who was in at the same time as me last September - I think she was the one who was undergoing her third round of chemo. Under a fierce wig and lots of winter wrapping I couldn't be sure WHO she was. But we shared womanly relief and celebration for our bodies being ok. This time.
I rushed home.
Yujiro waiting with the skis on the doorstep.
We loaded up the car and drove out to Kokusai ski area and had a whole ski day to ourselves. Haven't done this in ages. Just the two of us. Easy courses only because my knee felt stressy on even the intermediate course.
But it didn't matter.
I was there. He was there. The sun was there.
And all was well.
I didn't ski at all last year, and the year before that was only 4 times and mainly easy, social skiing with beginner level friends.
It seems so long ago that I was actually an active good skier, trying all sorts of crazy stuff off the courses in the snow. I don't know if I'll do that kind of skiing again.
Doesn't matter. I am just happy to be cancer-free and out in the sunshine with my guy.
Okaasan didn't go to hula dance class again this week. It was a rare sunny day with no snow. But still she didn't go. She said she can exercise at home, I think that means health guru Nishi-sensei and his swim-like-a-frog-exercises on the carpet. And the intermittent walking she is doing outside, recently about twice or three times a week.
It's a shame, because she does need the exercise and the social part of the class is good for her too. Really she only speaks to us and people in shops. And her brother who occasionally calls.
But. If she doesn't want to go we can't make her.
She seems ok. We left her lunch things in the kitchen today and she'd heated stuff up and eaten it.
Yujiro will be off this Friday to the big ski area of NIseko to work for 10 days with mainly Chinese customers - it's Chinese New Year and Sapporo Snow Festival. I will be home alone with Okaasan.
But I feel so happy I can DO anything!!!!!