I escaped it all today. I went skiing. It was great. Now I am drinking wine. That is also great! :-)))
Early this morning I had to go in and do morning greetings with okaasan...because his newly injured leg is obviously painful and we don't want her to notice. We spent all this year hiding the fact that he had had a big ski accident and was in hospital...so a little more deception is easy.
It reminds me of a few years ago when my mum was sick in one hospital with cancer, and grandad was sick in another hospital...and the decision was made NOT to tell him why she was in hospital - because "it would only worry him". My step father and I shuttled between 2 hospitals each day and had some very bizzare conversations with grandad about how mum's "influenza" was making her feel so poorly.
So - today okaasan doesn't know the latest twist in our life. That he's reinjured a badly broken leg.
After morning stuff at home I dropped him off at the hospital. And I drove away in the sunshine to the mountains and skied. It was soooooo good. Skiing with a big grin on my face under the ski mask. I felt like me again.
I met one of my old students in the restaurant and chatted to him...I enjoyed the sunshine and views. It was wonderful.
Then I drove back to Sapporo. Cleared the ice from the path outside the house, picked him up from the insurance section at the government office and came home to switch on the heating in okaasan's place and ...now..I am about to get dinner ready. Luckily I made stew yesterday, so it's easy.
Christmas Eve. I'll probably drink the rest of the bottle of wine tonight.
Christmas has snuck up on me this year and apart from my parents I haven't done any presents or cards. I guess most of my friends understand why.